My memories of you, of the happy times we spent together keep me going, keep me living, allow me to endure. Life is tough at the moment, very tough. Its the run up to the dreaded day, your last day and as ever I miss you. Ben's looking at flats with his girlfriend, its only a matter of time before he leaves me again. I'm bracing my poor battered heart for it. My life feels like a ribbon of loss. Be with me granny and be with my children. Help me protect them. I love you and I miss you.